'He had a length of milking machine hose in his hand and I watched in terror as once more he laid into my brother Barry with a merciless thrashing that just went on and on. Barry just lying there, as he always did, and taking it all. Then he turned on me - they were really ferocious blows. The weapon he had chosen was, without doubt, the worst we had ever endured. I yelled, screamed, pleaded, cried, and of course, wet myself.' This book is Colin Crump's courageous and heart-warming story of growing up in a New Zealand farming family with his brother Barry. Stories of an often-idyllic country boyhood, running wild half a century ago, are interwoven with almost unbearable scenes in which abusive father delivers brutal beatings to his spirited sons. In Endless Fear casts powerful new light on the Crump story.